Stupid mother fuckers....
Dark forces have been trying everything imaginable to provoke me into losing my temper and inciting me to violence on the astral plane.They are tricking people into killing and raping other people on the astral plane. Astral beings have attacked me so badly that I can't even think straight, which is costing my life dearly. Things have gotten so bad.The attacks over the last 24 hours have been pretty severe. They have been so severe to me that I have reacted violently.Score one for the dark forces.The whole idea of provoking someone into violence is to weaken one's soul-mindp-body complex, to lower their vibrational frequency so that they can be easily harvested.My whole goal was to raise my vibrational fequency through love, joy, bliss, compassion, forgiveness, etc.They have attacked my mind, body, soul, and people that I am with so badly that I finally weakened and reacted. I lost my temper. It has been an extremely rough year for me. After my last actions I am uncertain that I can be a part of the ascension process. I will keep trying, but the more I show love the worse it gets for me. This kinda reminds me of the relationship that I had with Jennifer Stoeck. The more I showed love, the more violent and hateful she became. She is Satanic in the worst way, as I found out later.This electronic harassment is related to her, I am convinced.I wont give up. But I am becoming extremely irritable after 7 years of this. There must be light at the end of the tunnel. But Stoeck related Satanic factions will try to break me down to the death. Just like she tried. The war of we, the Heavenly vs. Satanic factions is far from over. I must realize this.I wonder if I still have hope.
I'm not sure how true it is of what I'm hearing, but someone says that they have a million dollars for me if I do something with them. Someone else wants to be with person and get their money and other things. They somehow believe that they can slowly kill me off and force themselves onto this person.For the last three years I've been torn apart and eaten alive by astral entities and I'm now to the point where I barely function. I'm not certain if I will be dying in the near future. It feels like death already.Meanwhile my mind, soul, and body is being used somewhere else. Someone far away feels what I feel. My dreams and visions get stolen from me. These sinister people are acting like my mind is something that they own and need to show other people.Everyone uses my mind to view things. The music I think about they claim is some sort of radio. The list of violations and crimes against me goes on and on.Some group wants to take my body away from me. My telepathy and other brain communications have been rerouted to somewhere else.I dont know how much longer I have to live. A damn shame.In the event of my death: www.emhdf.com
If for some reason I die or halfway die and am able to be brought back to life, the new me is not to be trusted. Someone or something wants in. I still refuse and reject it. No agreements will ever be made. But someone believes that I can be taken by force.
It becomes increasingly clear that I have become quite the resource.My advanced spiritual being, my released advanced kundalini are quite the hot commodity.I have a deep connection to the Godhead that I have been deprived of for the last number of years by parasitic scum that believes that they can cheat the universe and definitely cheat the Reptilians, Grays, and Satanic factions, although they may be using it too.When my soul-mind-body matrix was invaded by the K.K.K., the mafia, and shadow factions in attempt to break me down and program me into an assassin they got more than they bargained for when they encountered a psychic, advanced spiritual soul. When other beings found me and linked my mind universally, these crackers started to lay claim to my mind and declared that everyone had to go through them.Through years of my own spiritual cultivation, yoga, and my past history with psylocibins I had developed a stronger connection to the Godhead, my Higher Self, Superconsciousness, and built strong kundalini. This is why I am networked, or "with people."Now these clowns and others like them are now are all fighting for the rights to everything that I am while segregating me from myself. I am being used in other places. I can't even use my intuition anymore. I am literally being hijacked.I am beginning to understand this on deeper levels now.It's me against them. I need my connection to my Higher Self to myself, plain and simple and this will be my focus from now on.
I just realized while chanting Om today that there are entities stealing spiritual beings from me and ones that come to me, as well as my own spiritual energy and kundalini. All of this is being transferred to garbage humans and other entities that cannot support spiritual energy or spiritual beings of their own. They are more on the Satanic side and belong in Satanic things, but they are "piggy-backing" on me to be a part of a collective that they weren't chosen for.In turn this is draining me and depriving me of my connection to my Higher Self and the God-head.Some immediate action must be taken to deal with these parasites.
The painful gut wrenching vomiting has continued until there was nothing more to do but dry heaving. It feels so incredibly bad.After my final terrible dry heave I heard a voice saying, "There's nothing else in him now. I think we got it all out of him.They have been determined to make the 5HTP not work.I also heard someone plea to someone else, "That person is going to hell. He cant do anything for anyone."I have heard similar things before. Someone might be trying to "cheat the devil" by trying desperately to get into my body. He might have tricked people that I am with into helping him.
I finally received my shipment of bulk 5HTP and proceeded to take a heavy dose. Since I took it I am being heavily attacked by many different astral beings. The projectile vomiting has started again. There is some entity that knows how to make me extremely sick. It is a terrible feeling.5HTP helps your brain in releasing seratonin, an amino that creates pleasant feelings.For 7 years they have tried anything and everything to get inside of me. The key for them is try to coax me into negative thoughts, negative feelings, and negative actions.I am naturally joyous and it hasnt been working. I understand how they do things. I wont do anything that they hope for.Since I wont be anything like the weaker, negative humans that they normally target, they have tried to make me feel bad by artificial means, restricting oxygen and blood flow to the brain. They prevent my brain's release of seratonin and dopamine. They murder countless astral beings that work inside of humans that make humans happy and well. They make me feel physically ill.So now I attempt to counter this with things like 5HTP and I will find other countermeasure like yoga, etc.As I write I am feeling so incredibly ill by them. I may vomit again. By the I am being attacked right now to this extreme tells me that 5HTP is a step in right direction.
.. there's someone out there with the brain of a small, hurtful child that makes me hear little sound bites of things when I'm half asleep in a feeble attempt to upset me.In the beginning it was the crying of heavenly beings that were trapped in ugly things. That was very upsetting.Later on it would be sounds of some woman having sex with some guy. I guess for some reason this was supposed to upset me. I dont know why.This morning it was some festive music. I guess someone is having a good time without me, whoever that may be.This morning I was told some story about some "amazing" woman who wanted to be with me, but this satanic kkk team worked hard at ruining my life and making her believe that I was incompetent. Then they brought their lackey in to take my place which had weakened himself enough to have some old troll enter his body so that he could be with her. Now they're having sex and the "time of their lives" and I dont get to be a part of it, as somehow demonstrated in a juvenile way with sound bites into my brain.I dont know if there is a word for it, but pathetic sounds way too glorious to use for them.Anyway, I dont know anyone, so I dont know what the point of all this is. I just hope to find a way to disconnect my soul, mind, and body from all humans involved. They make me ill. The sooner this is over the better. I'd like to get back to my normal life.
It's been such a long time since I last posted and for very good reason. The negative astral entity attacks and psychotronics have been so intense and bad that I have lost two jobs this year and just recently lost my bank account.It's so hard to move. It's hard to think. Sometimes it's hard to breathe. Everything keeps getting worse.I can't focus to read. They have attacked my brain, my nervous system, etc. I have experienced shakes, concussion-like projectile vomiting, shortness of breath.I know that part of this is to try and take my mind and body away from me and to be in a position of control to be with people on that side. Someone is desperately trying to break me down in order to get some entity into me and the attacks are relentless.I am going to try to resume this journal and keep people updated. However there is something attached to my brain that is stealing my dreams and my communications. I receive little or nothing now.There are also one or more beings who have completely overlapped my being. I hurt myself and I barely feel anything, but I hear someone else screaming in pain in the astral distance.The same distant screaming happens when I take a shower. Whoever this is does not like hot water.I have been a compromised conscious awareness. I feel like a living dead person: little awareness, no mental sharpness, no feeling, no sexual energy, no mental or psychic functions being used effectively.Extremes in sinus pressure are horrible.I am a small fraction of a human right now.I got a yoga pass and just ordered a big thing of 5HTP powder. Negative astral entities hate humans that feel good. Good feelings repel them. I must find ways to feel good.More to come..